November 2, 2022
BY THE DANUBE
This poem touches me more and more, as my ancestors come to mind more and more often, even in joyful moments.
I can give meaning to their lives of many struggles in retrospect by being happy, and by appreciating the life I received from them.
Sometimes in my imagination that I show them the beauty I see, hear, and experience – in other words, I just remind myself that through me they also still experience this world.
And of course, they dance with me, too.
“I am he who has gazed a hundred thousand years
I see what they could not because they must
On that which he now sees for the first time.
One moment, and fulfilled all time appears
In a hundred thousand forbears’ eyes and mine.
Drag hoes, kill and embrace, for this enrolled,
And they, who have descended into dust
See what I do not, if the truth be told.
We know each other as sorrow and delight.
I, in the past, they in the present live.
They hold the pencil in the poem I write.
I feel them and evoke what they now give. (…)
They speak to me, for not I am they, robust Despite whatever weakness made me frail,
And I think back that I am more than most:
Each ancestor am I, to the first cell. (…)“
(Attila József: By the Danube)